Previous night's sleep - on track - 7 hours - start/stop - decent
Consumption - off track. let's get serious here
Breakfast - fat free vanilla yogurt w/ vanilla almond crunch Bare Naked Granola - bought the fat free Kroger brand
Lunch - salad - green leaf lettuce, ham, fake bacon bits, sunflower seeds, bell peppers, croutons, and light caesar dressing + tuna salad + seafood salad
Dinner - Brat, 2 eggs, and rice + life changing mac 'n cheese (smoked gouda, pancetta, heavy cream, and shells)
Snack - 4 pieces of Texas Toast (the kind w/ cheese on top)
Status report -
Milestones hit:
cardio workout - 1 hour at 60% max heart rate - on track
strength training - lifting more weight, good form, w/ super sets to keep the heart rate up - on track - I'm strongest I've been in a couple of years
Frequency of excercise - 3 x a week - on track
sleep - 7 hours a night - off track - big time, inconsistent amounts of sleep combined with bad choices in start/stop time
consumption - way off track - I have made improvements, but lack consistency. I need to start preparing lunch the night before to take to work to save money and to lose weight.
Overall - commitment - I feel as if I need to re-commit - I need to eat better during the week and more often. I need to workout more often and start doing it 5 days a week. I need to sleep better, starting tomorrow night - it's already 1am and I need to wake up at 6am to workout.
Achievement unlocked - I did my taxes today.
Takeaway - If you are eating a shit sandwich, it's because you ordered it.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Day 33 - Sunday, April 12
Previous night's sleep - great - more than 8 hours - start/stop - terrible, again, woke up around 2pm
Consumption - poor
Lunch - 1/2 a slop bucket - about 1 pint - layers of which are coleslaw, baked beans, pulled pork, and cheesy potatoes + 1 rib - all from Belmont Barbecue - w/ Dragon's Breath + Mild sauce - half each + 2 ice cream sandwiches
Dinner - the rest of the slop bucket [minus a coffee mug's worth] + 1 ice cream sandwich
Snack - 1 pint of Ben and Jerry's Chunky Monkey
I attempted to start and finish my taxes but ran into an issue...I need my adjusted gross income in order to e-file...til tomorrow I suppose.
Consumption - poor
Lunch - 1/2 a slop bucket - about 1 pint - layers of which are coleslaw, baked beans, pulled pork, and cheesy potatoes + 1 rib - all from Belmont Barbecue - w/ Dragon's Breath + Mild sauce - half each + 2 ice cream sandwiches
Dinner - the rest of the slop bucket [minus a coffee mug's worth] + 1 ice cream sandwich
Snack - 1 pint of Ben and Jerry's Chunky Monkey
I attempted to start and finish my taxes but ran into an issue...I need my adjusted gross income in order to e-file...til tomorrow I suppose.
Day 32 - Saturday, April 11
Previous night's sleep - excellent, more than 8 hours - start/stop - terrible, woke up at 2pm
Consumption - typical, poor, weekend feeding
Lunch - sausage, eggs, and rice
Snack - brat w/ bread + brat eggs, and rice
Dessert - 3 ice cream sandwiches
Snack - wheat thins, dip, cheese log, carrot cake - small quantities of each - atypically small
Snack - two hot dogs
Consumption - typical, poor, weekend feeding
Lunch - sausage, eggs, and rice
Snack - brat w/ bread + brat eggs, and rice
Dessert - 3 ice cream sandwiches
Snack - wheat thins, dip, cheese log, carrot cake - small quantities of each - atypically small
Snack - two hot dogs
Friday, April 10, 2009
Day 31 - Friday, April 10
Previous night's sleep - off track - around 6.5 - went to bed past 1:15am and woke up at 6 to go work out and fell back asleep, woke up around 7:45am - so, Mike and Rana decided to play tennis before hitting the gym, the courts are at the gym. When I received my wake up call from Mike around 6am, I asked him if they would be playing tennis, yes he said. So, I figured, I would get a little extra sleep. Having done this a million times before, I knew I wouldn't wake up. But I went to bed again anyway, and woke up just in time to call them and find out they were getting ready to leave after playing an hour of tennis.
Consumption - terrible.
Breakfast - 5 hash browns + a steak, egg, and cheese bagel from McDonald's
Lunch - 1 slice of cheese and 1 slice of pepperoni from Christian's Pizza
Snack - sausage and egg biscuit left over from breakfast
Snack - a rib from Belmont Barbecue
Dinner - pho noodles w/ pork tenderloin and steakums along w/ the noodles + rice - very traditional, credit Visa
Dessert - chocolate chip cookie sandwich (icing b/n the two cookies) + an ice cream sandwich
Workout - imagined
30 days into the new lifestyle change, I have managed to gain about 5lbs. I started in at about 244lbs and now weigh 249lbs
Hopefully it's muscle gained.
Ha. Optimism.
Consumption - terrible.
Breakfast - 5 hash browns + a steak, egg, and cheese bagel from McDonald's
Lunch - 1 slice of cheese and 1 slice of pepperoni from Christian's Pizza
Snack - sausage and egg biscuit left over from breakfast
Snack - a rib from Belmont Barbecue
Dinner - pho noodles w/ pork tenderloin and steakums along w/ the noodles + rice - very traditional, credit Visa
Dessert - chocolate chip cookie sandwich (icing b/n the two cookies) + an ice cream sandwich
Workout - imagined
30 days into the new lifestyle change, I have managed to gain about 5lbs. I started in at about 244lbs and now weigh 249lbs
Hopefully it's muscle gained.
Ha. Optimism.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Growth
So, today, most of my thoughts were spent on getting people together to celebrate a friend's birthday, Greg a.k.a. Old Dirty Greg, he turned 28. Needless to say, I was not super productive at work today. I called his girlfriend to see what kind of cake he would want, the answer, chocolate peanut butter pie. I have never heard of such a concoction. I called Harris Teeter, Kroger, Food Lion, and Whole Foods fruitlessly. Calling Albemarle Baking Company led me to voice mail. Chandler's bakery makes the dessert, but does not stock them regularly - requiring a lead time of 3 days. I tracked down the beast at Hot Cakes. $18 for a small, 6 slice pie and $31 for a 12 slice. So, cake - check. Gift - turns out Greg really desired to own a movie called "Foot Fist Way" - easy enough, I ordered it online from Best Buy for in store pickup - check. Made a bunch of calls to get a venue - Tristan's house - check. Called friends to come - check. I left work at 6pm to pick everything up. Eventually, made it to Tristan's house around 9pm. All was excellent. The cake and ice cream delicious and Greg had a good time. I left before 10pm and got home around 10:10pm.
Passive Aggression:
I come home, and start washing the dishes and taking out the trash. We have a cleaning schedule - credit me - where one of us has to wash dishes and take out the trash for a week at a time. If you are ever at the house, there is a calendar on the fridge, for 2009, A = Alan, J= me, and V=Visa. Pots, pans, and collanders are to be cleaned by the user, with the rest to be cleaned by whoever has kitchen duty. I unload the dishwasher and load it back up again with all of the dirty dishes in the sink. I empty the trash. Alan and his girl are in the living room. His gf's dog on the floor. I need my flip flops to go outside. I see one and am unable to find the other. I proceed to go outside and take the trash outside, barefoot. I come back in and search again for the missing flip flop. Alan asks if I need assistance, I reply, I should be able to find a flip flop on my own. Found - hidden between the dog and the couch. With my newly completed pair of flip flops on my feet, I go to the kitchen to finish cleaning. I wash my pots and pans. I wash my silpat. Alan's asks, "is there anything wrong?" - I of course reply, no, I just want to finish my duties so I can go to bed. Dishes done, I proceed to wash the stove and some counter space. As I am scrubbing away, I begin to take inventory of what's around me. I bought a giant pack of cheap towels to use around the kitchen. I see a dirty pile of them on the counter. They do not wash them, and after I launder, they magically reappear, ready to be used. There is one coke zero left, lone, from what was once a 12 pack. They do not buy coke zero, but drink them. As I am scrubbing the stove, Alan asks again, if something is wrong, I tell him the same thing, I want to finish so I can go to bed.
The only difference between unjustified anger and justified anger is how long you hold on to it. I finish cleaning the kitchen, the stack of dirty towels still on the sink. Pots, pans, a baking sheet, and a collander, still dirty, adjacent to the towels. I have a right to be angry right?
Reality:
I am full of anger, and have been banging around the kitchen and frantically making a scene in the living room in front of Alan and his girl, picking up things and moving them around to find my magical flip flop. I do not address them or ask them how their days have gone.
Less than 30 minutes after leaving a gathering that I helped arrange, I am full of spite. Who am I?
The dish towels - I do wash them every week. Though mentioned in passing, I have not explicity said to Alan and Visa that they need to wash them, why would they, seeing as I do it.
The soda - there were probably less than 6 left that they could have consumed. In a house of roommates, unless explicitly stated, the rules of the jungle are that you can eat anything, but can't take the last of anything. This leads to drops of OJ and milk left in the fridge. Single sodas where cases once stood. And a quantity of one egg remaining, in what was once a sheet of 2 and a half dozen. When they ask for a soda, I never deny. Do I feel the anger because they hadn't asked me if they could drink the ones they did, if any at all?
The state of the kitchen - I am not a clean and tidy person. How can I expect them to judge me on my best intentions while I judge them on their actions - or inaction? It is my week to do the dishes and tidy the kitchen. While it may be true that the kitchen was spick and span, on the surfaces at least, after I was done. It is totally Visa's right to go downstairs and clutter the kitchen once more. Do I like it? No. But he is not doing it to piss me off, he's doing it, because he's hungry.
After my hissy fit, Alan and his girl went upstairs to watch a movie. I went to my room to eat the last whopper jr. of the night. I started watching How I Met Your Mother and ate the burger. The rage subsided. Then guilt moved in. After eating, I smoked a cigarette. During which, I came to the conclusion, that the perceived injustices against me did not justify my childish behavior tonight. A few short moments later, alone with my thoughts, I knew I had to apologize to Alan and his girl. I did. I went in with the intention of saying my part, what I had done wrong, and that it was wrong of me to act that way. It became drawn out. I was asked why I had felt agitated. I said. Careful not to attack, I tried to stick to principles. I will not repeat what was said, but there was no calculated anger on my part. No underlying motive to "win." I want to be part of the solution and stop discussing the problem. I supressed my urge to keep score and negate the opposing points.
Change:
For all of my fans and followers of this blog. (Could be fan and follower.) My natural inclination is to argue - no matter what. If I could have answered you honestly, just a couple of years ago, whether I would rather be right or happy...right would have been my desire, even if it meant misery for me.
My tolerance of the wrongs done to others by me has diminished to the point where it causes distress in my person to know that I have rooked someone else. Though, this doesn't make me perfect - it allows me to grow. To get better, to take action, to try, and be...a better person.
How did I, within 30 minutes of being part of a celebration, turn into such a wretched troll?
The more important question, is how, did I, get to the point where I apologize for things and take ownership of my shortcomings as a human being?
I am grateful. We all have faults, and I can attest, that I can not always see my faults. But when I do notice them, I do not let them own me. When I see the good in others, I am at peace with the world. When I see nothing but unmatched expectation, surely, there is some sort of internal turmoil within me.
Passive Aggression:
I come home, and start washing the dishes and taking out the trash. We have a cleaning schedule - credit me - where one of us has to wash dishes and take out the trash for a week at a time. If you are ever at the house, there is a calendar on the fridge, for 2009, A = Alan, J= me, and V=Visa. Pots, pans, and collanders are to be cleaned by the user, with the rest to be cleaned by whoever has kitchen duty. I unload the dishwasher and load it back up again with all of the dirty dishes in the sink. I empty the trash. Alan and his girl are in the living room. His gf's dog on the floor. I need my flip flops to go outside. I see one and am unable to find the other. I proceed to go outside and take the trash outside, barefoot. I come back in and search again for the missing flip flop. Alan asks if I need assistance, I reply, I should be able to find a flip flop on my own. Found - hidden between the dog and the couch. With my newly completed pair of flip flops on my feet, I go to the kitchen to finish cleaning. I wash my pots and pans. I wash my silpat. Alan's asks, "is there anything wrong?" - I of course reply, no, I just want to finish my duties so I can go to bed. Dishes done, I proceed to wash the stove and some counter space. As I am scrubbing away, I begin to take inventory of what's around me. I bought a giant pack of cheap towels to use around the kitchen. I see a dirty pile of them on the counter. They do not wash them, and after I launder, they magically reappear, ready to be used. There is one coke zero left, lone, from what was once a 12 pack. They do not buy coke zero, but drink them. As I am scrubbing the stove, Alan asks again, if something is wrong, I tell him the same thing, I want to finish so I can go to bed.
The only difference between unjustified anger and justified anger is how long you hold on to it. I finish cleaning the kitchen, the stack of dirty towels still on the sink. Pots, pans, a baking sheet, and a collander, still dirty, adjacent to the towels. I have a right to be angry right?
Reality:
I am full of anger, and have been banging around the kitchen and frantically making a scene in the living room in front of Alan and his girl, picking up things and moving them around to find my magical flip flop. I do not address them or ask them how their days have gone.
Less than 30 minutes after leaving a gathering that I helped arrange, I am full of spite. Who am I?
The dish towels - I do wash them every week. Though mentioned in passing, I have not explicity said to Alan and Visa that they need to wash them, why would they, seeing as I do it.
The soda - there were probably less than 6 left that they could have consumed. In a house of roommates, unless explicitly stated, the rules of the jungle are that you can eat anything, but can't take the last of anything. This leads to drops of OJ and milk left in the fridge. Single sodas where cases once stood. And a quantity of one egg remaining, in what was once a sheet of 2 and a half dozen. When they ask for a soda, I never deny. Do I feel the anger because they hadn't asked me if they could drink the ones they did, if any at all?
The state of the kitchen - I am not a clean and tidy person. How can I expect them to judge me on my best intentions while I judge them on their actions - or inaction? It is my week to do the dishes and tidy the kitchen. While it may be true that the kitchen was spick and span, on the surfaces at least, after I was done. It is totally Visa's right to go downstairs and clutter the kitchen once more. Do I like it? No. But he is not doing it to piss me off, he's doing it, because he's hungry.
After my hissy fit, Alan and his girl went upstairs to watch a movie. I went to my room to eat the last whopper jr. of the night. I started watching How I Met Your Mother and ate the burger. The rage subsided. Then guilt moved in. After eating, I smoked a cigarette. During which, I came to the conclusion, that the perceived injustices against me did not justify my childish behavior tonight. A few short moments later, alone with my thoughts, I knew I had to apologize to Alan and his girl. I did. I went in with the intention of saying my part, what I had done wrong, and that it was wrong of me to act that way. It became drawn out. I was asked why I had felt agitated. I said. Careful not to attack, I tried to stick to principles. I will not repeat what was said, but there was no calculated anger on my part. No underlying motive to "win." I want to be part of the solution and stop discussing the problem. I supressed my urge to keep score and negate the opposing points.
Change:
For all of my fans and followers of this blog. (Could be fan and follower.) My natural inclination is to argue - no matter what. If I could have answered you honestly, just a couple of years ago, whether I would rather be right or happy...right would have been my desire, even if it meant misery for me.
My tolerance of the wrongs done to others by me has diminished to the point where it causes distress in my person to know that I have rooked someone else. Though, this doesn't make me perfect - it allows me to grow. To get better, to take action, to try, and be...a better person.
How did I, within 30 minutes of being part of a celebration, turn into such a wretched troll?
The more important question, is how, did I, get to the point where I apologize for things and take ownership of my shortcomings as a human being?
I am grateful. We all have faults, and I can attest, that I can not always see my faults. But when I do notice them, I do not let them own me. When I see the good in others, I am at peace with the world. When I see nothing but unmatched expectation, surely, there is some sort of internal turmoil within me.
Day 30 - Thursday, April 9
Previous night's sleep - terrible - 5 hours - I went to bed after 1 and woke up a little bit after 6
Consumption - bad
Post workout - whey + water
Breakfast - fat free vanilla yogurt w/ vanilla almond crunch Bare Naked Granola - bought the fat free Kroger brand
Lunch - meatloaf, a double serving of mashed potatoes, gravy, a roll + 6 chicken wings w/ ranch
Snack - the rest of the meatloaf above
Dinner - whopper jr. + spicy chicken sandwich from burger king
Dessert - small slice of Kroger Turtle cake + small slice of peanut butter cake from Hot Cakes + some vanilla ice cream
Snack - whopper jr.
Casein + water
Workout - Cardio - excellent
1 hour at an average of 69% max heart rate - 144 beats/min on avg. on the interval setting of the elliptical machine
So, at work, they started this walking program, you get prizes for hitting milestones of miles walked/ran - 30 miles by May I think is the first and 400 miles by October
I didn't go on the kick-off walk today, seeing as I stuffed my face with meatloaf and chicken wings right before the walk. People won prizes - $100 in massage gift certificates...I wish I had walked...
Consumption - bad
Post workout - whey + water
Breakfast - fat free vanilla yogurt w/ vanilla almond crunch Bare Naked Granola - bought the fat free Kroger brand
Lunch - meatloaf, a double serving of mashed potatoes, gravy, a roll + 6 chicken wings w/ ranch
Snack - the rest of the meatloaf above
Dinner - whopper jr. + spicy chicken sandwich from burger king
Dessert - small slice of Kroger Turtle cake + small slice of peanut butter cake from Hot Cakes + some vanilla ice cream
Snack - whopper jr.
Casein + water
Workout - Cardio - excellent
1 hour at an average of 69% max heart rate - 144 beats/min on avg. on the interval setting of the elliptical machine
So, at work, they started this walking program, you get prizes for hitting milestones of miles walked/ran - 30 miles by May I think is the first and 400 miles by October
I didn't go on the kick-off walk today, seeing as I stuffed my face with meatloaf and chicken wings right before the walk. People won prizes - $100 in massage gift certificates...I wish I had walked...
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Day 29 - Wednesday, April 8
Previous night's sleep - decent - 7+ hours - broken - I went to bed around 2:15am with the intention of waking up at 6am to go to the gym. I ended up waking up after 9 with 20+ missed phone calls. Sorry Mike and Rana.
Consumption - mixed bag
Breakfast - 3 small slices of pizza - 1 w/ pesto, spinach, and goat cheese and 2 w/ the same as the other plus pepperoni
Lunch - went to Riverside North - had a bacon cheeseburger sub - think hamburger, multiple patties, on a sub roll - w/ everything - *Note - everything includes relish - I did not know + fries w/ ketchup and plenty of black pepper
Post Workout - Whey + Water
Dinner - steamed broccoli + 2 x nathan's hot dogs - 1 x bun, honey dijon mustard and diced onions - the other plain w/ the broccoli
Snack - a chocolate chip cookie sandwich w/ icing and walnuts in the middle + a portobello mushroom sandwich - 1/4 of a giant cap + 1/2 a sub roll w/ cheese and various condiments - credit visa
Workout - Triceps + legs
Skull crushers - E-Z curl bar - 3x10 approx. 90lbs - ~40 on each side
+Leg Press Machine - 3x10 170lbs + calf raises w/ same weight - 3 x 30 (10 each at toes straight, pointed in, and pointed out)
+ Leg raises on a decline bench - 3x15 - legs extended and coming up past 90 degrees from the ground - killer - done in between exercises - on the last set, held legs off the ground for 20 seconds.
Seated overhead dumbbell extensions - 3 x 10 - 45lb (1 dumbbell) - 3rd set was done standing because there were no free benches
+Quad extensions + hamstring curls - superset - 1x10 each 50lbs plus 2x10 each 60lbs
Close grip bench - E-Z curl bar - 1x20 90lbs + 2x15 approx 120lbs
+Squats - no weight - 2x10 + 1x15
Had a good workout today. It's weird that my triceps do not out muscle my biceps by such a large amount. I'll have to work on that.
Consumption - mixed bag
Breakfast - 3 small slices of pizza - 1 w/ pesto, spinach, and goat cheese and 2 w/ the same as the other plus pepperoni
Lunch - went to Riverside North - had a bacon cheeseburger sub - think hamburger, multiple patties, on a sub roll - w/ everything - *Note - everything includes relish - I did not know + fries w/ ketchup and plenty of black pepper
Post Workout - Whey + Water
Dinner - steamed broccoli + 2 x nathan's hot dogs - 1 x bun, honey dijon mustard and diced onions - the other plain w/ the broccoli
Snack - a chocolate chip cookie sandwich w/ icing and walnuts in the middle + a portobello mushroom sandwich - 1/4 of a giant cap + 1/2 a sub roll w/ cheese and various condiments - credit visa
Workout - Triceps + legs
Skull crushers - E-Z curl bar - 3x10 approx. 90lbs - ~40 on each side
+Leg Press Machine - 3x10 170lbs + calf raises w/ same weight - 3 x 30 (10 each at toes straight, pointed in, and pointed out)
+ Leg raises on a decline bench - 3x15 - legs extended and coming up past 90 degrees from the ground - killer - done in between exercises - on the last set, held legs off the ground for 20 seconds.
Seated overhead dumbbell extensions - 3 x 10 - 45lb (1 dumbbell) - 3rd set was done standing because there were no free benches
+Quad extensions + hamstring curls - superset - 1x10 each 50lbs plus 2x10 each 60lbs
Close grip bench - E-Z curl bar - 1x20 90lbs + 2x15 approx 120lbs
+Squats - no weight - 2x10 + 1x15
Had a good workout today. It's weird that my triceps do not out muscle my biceps by such a large amount. I'll have to work on that.
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